Whirlwind......

The past few weeks have been jam packed with with too much to do and me not being able to manage my time well enough to get everything done with out being stressed out. But the beauty of my procrastination is that I have luck, and with luck, everything falls into place and life is a breeze. Its almost not fair how easy and enjoyable my life is ( Not to rub that in). Everything has been smooth sailing since my recent break up. I was heart broken....heart ripped out of my chest. Worst pain Ive ever encountered internally. But one day, it just stopped and I moved on. I made myself the most important person in my life. I became selfish and intend to stay such for awhile. So Ive thrown myself into too many hobbies: Ive taken on a role in a musical at a local theater, singing in a Jazz ensemble affiliated with Thomas University. (my drummer is so hot), school, and trips to Savannah! ( Savannah: bitch lover, remember?). And maybe a trip out of the country.... maybe.... am having trouble finding the money...$1700. I tried to take out my very first personal loan to be able to afford the trip, but I had no idea that it was going to be so difficult to do so. I have established credit but not long enough for me to be considered a desirable candidate for a loan. I kinda dont know what to do.... Beg my dad.... thats not right... I am suppose to be finding my financial independence from my family and if I some how borrow this much money, that just puts me in a place I do not want to be in. I will keep you posted, hopefully I can talk Dad into paying. Keep your fingers crossed for me. oh lordy...i really want to go! I hope there is a way to pull this off. I need to get out of America for a short bit. Hike a few mountains, volcanoes.... drink rum.